उद्यानावलयस् सर्वाḫ पूर्णाẖ कुसुमवर्षणैः । सम्पन्नास् तप्तसिकताश् शून्या मे मरुभूमयः
All the gardens encircling me are filled with showers of flowers; my deserts, though rich with burning sands, are empty.
जललोलोरुकल्हारकमलोत्करकोमलाः । सरस्यस् सारसारावसरसा मम नीरसाः
The lakes, once soft with swaying lotuses, blue lilies, and tender water-lilies, now lack all sweetness for me, though cranes and swans still dwell there.
अहं पुष्करमन्दारकुमुदोत्करमालिता । भृशं दाहम् अवाप्नोमि कण्टकेष्व् इव दोलिता
I, adorned with lotuses, heavenly coral-trees, and clusters of water-lilies, am scorched with intense burning, as if tossed among thorns.
कुमुदोत्पलकल्हारकदलीतल्पपालयः । मदङ्गसङ्गमाद् ग्रीष्ममर्मरा यान्ति भस्मताम्
Beds of water-lilies, blue lotuses, and golden lotuses, with banana-leaf canopies, are reduced to ashes by the searing heat of my body's contact.
यत् कान्तम् उदितं स्वादु विचित्रं चित्तहारि वा । तद् आलोक्य भवाम्य् अन्तर्बाष्पपूर्णायतेक्षणा
Whenever I see something lovely, delightful, or captivating to the mind, my eyes fill with tears within.
व्यसनानलसन्तप्ताḫ पतन्तो बाष्पबिन्दवः । छमच्छमिति मज्जन्ति कमलोत्पलपङ्क्तिषु
Drops of tears, heated by the fire of sorrow, fall and sink with a soft sound among the rows of lotuses and blue lilies.
कदलीकन्दलीस्कन्धदोलान्दोलनलीलया । ललितोद्यानषण्डेषु मुखम् आच्छाद्य रोदिमि
In the charming groves, I cover my face and weep, swaying gently on the swinging stems and trunks of banana trees.
तुषारनिकराकीर्णं कदलीदलमण्डपम् । पश्याम्य् ऊष्माणम् उज्झन्तं खदिराङ्गारभीषणम्
I see the pavilion of banana leaves, covered with heaps of frost, emitting fierce heat like the embers of acacia wood.
नलिनीनालदोलासु सारसीं सारसाश्रिताम् । दीनानना विलोक्यान्तर् निन्दामि निजयौवनम्
Seeing the sorrowful faces of the waterfowl resting on the swaying stalks of lotuses in the pond, I inwardly reproach my own youth.
रम्ये रोदिमि मध्यस्थे पदार्थे यामि सोम्यताम् । हृष्याम्य् अशोभने दीना न जाने किम् अहं स्थिता
In beautiful places I weep; in the midst of things I become gentle; I rejoice in what is unlovely, and am dejected—truly, I do not know what state I am in.
दृष्टानि कुन्दमन्दारकुमुदानि हिमानि च । मया कामाग्निदग्धानां भस्मानीव दिशḫ प्रति
I have seen jasmine, coral-tree, water-lily, and snow—yet to me, who am scorched by the fire of desire, they appear in every direction like ashes.
आनीलपल्लवमृणाललतोत्पलानां कल्हारकुन्दकदलीदलमालतीनाम् । शय्या ममाङ्गवलनेन विशोषयन्त्या व्यर्थं गतानि नवयौवनवासराणि
The beds of blue lotus, tender grass, red lotus, water-lily, jasmine, banana leaf, and garland flowers have been wasted by embracing my body, and the days of my youthful prime have passed in vain.
अथ कालेन महता सो ऽनुरागो विरागताम् । प्राप्तो मम शरच्छान्तौ विरसḫ पल्लवो यथा
Then, with the passage of much time, that deep attachment turned to dispassion for me, like a withered sprout at the end of autumn.
वृद्ध एकान्तरसिको नीरसस् स्नेहवर्जितः । भर्ताजिह्ममतिर् मौनी किम् अन्यज् जीवितेन मे
Now old, withdrawn, devoid of taste, without affection, with a husband whose mind is crooked and silent—what is the point of my life?
वरं वैधव्यम् आ बाल्याद् वरं मरणम् एव वा । वरं व्याधिर् अथापद् वा नाहृद्यप्रकृतिḫ पतिः
Better widowhood from childhood, or even death itself; better sickness or misfortune than a husband whose nature is unloving.
एतावज् जन्मसाफल्यं सौभाग्यम् अविखण्डितम् । रसिकḫ पेशलाचारो यन् नार्यास् तरुणḫ पतिः
This alone is the fulfillment of birth and unbroken good fortune for a woman: to have a youthful husband who is sensitive and of gentle conduct.
हता नीरसनाथा स्त्री हतासंस्कारिणी च धीः । हता दुर्जनभुक्ता श्रीर् हता वेश्या हृता ह्रिया
A woman is ruined when abandoned by her husband, the mind is ruined when devoid of discernment, fortune is ruined when enjoyed by the wicked, and modesty is ruined when seized by a courtesan.
सा स्त्री यानुगता भर्त्रा सा श्रीर् यानुगता सता । सा तुर्या मदनोदारा सा धीर् या समदृष्टिता
She is a true wife who follows her husband; that is true fortune which abides with the virtuous; that is supreme delight which arises from love; that is true wisdom which sees all equally.
नाधयो व्याधयो नैव नापदो न दुरीतयः । कुर्वन्ति मनसो बाधां दम्पत्योर् अनुरक्तयोः
No poverty, no disease, no calamity, nor any misfortune can trouble the minds of a couple who are devoted to each other.
उत्फुल्लाẖ कुसुमस्थल्यो नन्दनोद्यानभूमयः । धन्वायन्ते कुनाथानां विनाथानां च योषिताम्
The flower-laden gardens of Nandana bloom abundantly, but they become barren for women who are without a worthy husband or who are abandoned.
सर्व एव जगद्भावा यथेच्छं गुणलेशतः । सन्त्यज्यन्ते ऽन्यम् आदातुं वर्जयित्वा पतिं स्त्रिया
All the experiences of the world, touched by a trace of pleasure, are abandoned by a woman in order to attain another, except for her own husband.
स्थिरयौवनया दुẖखान्य् एतानि मुनिनायक । भुक्तानि वर्षवृन्दानि पश्य दौर्भाग्यजृम्भितम्
O chief of sages, with enduring youth, these sufferings have been endured for many years; see how misfortune has unfolded.
अथ क्रमेण तेनैव स रागो मे विरागताम् । आययौ हिमदग्धाया नलिन्या इव नीरसः
Then, gradually, that same passion in me turned to dispassion, just as a lotus becomes sapless when struck by frost.
विरागवासनापास्तसर्वभावानुरञ्जना । तवोपदेशेनेच्छामि मुने निर्वाणम् आत्मनः
With all attachments dispelled by the tendency toward dispassion, by your instruction, O sage, I now desire the liberation of the self.
अप्राप्ताभिमतार्थानाम् अविश्रान्तधियां परे । मरणैर् उह्यमानानां जीवितान् मरणं वरम्
For those whose desired goals remain unattained, whose minds are restless, and who are driven by deaths, death is preferable to life.
स मद्भर्ताद्य निर्वाणम् ईहमानो दिवानिशम् । राजा राज्ञेव मनसा मनो जेतुं प्रबुध्यते
He, my master, now seeks liberation day and night; like a king striving to conquer his own mind, he awakens his mind.
ब्रह्मंस् तत् तस्य मद्भर्तुर् मम चाज्ञानशान्तये । न्यायोपपन्नया वाचा कुरु स्मारणम् आत्मनः
O Brahman, for the peace from ignorance of my master and myself, speak words that are just and proper, and remind us of the Self.
यदा माम् अनपेक्ष्यैव स मद्भर्तात्मनि स्थितः । तदा विरागवैरस्यम् अनयन् मे जगत्स्थितिम्
When he, my master, abides in the Self without regard for me, then detachment and disinterest have brought me to the state of the world.
संसारवासनावेशवर्जितास्मि ततो ऽवशम् । निबध्याभिमतां तीव्रां व्योमसञ्चारधारणाम्
Thus, I am free from the influence of worldly desires, and, compelled, I fixed my intense desired concentration on traversing the sky.
अर्जयित्वा तया व्योम्नि गतिं धारणया मया । अभ्यस्ता धारणा भूयस् सिद्धसङ्गफलप्रदा
Having attained movement in the sky through that concentration, I practiced the concentration further, which yielded the fruit of association with the accomplished.