पाषाणसङ्कटे तस्मिन् बद्धाव् आवां न केवलम् । बद्धो यावद् अशेषेण परिवारो ऽपि तत्र नः
In that rocky confinement, not only are we two bound, but our entire household is also completely bound there.
पुराणḫ पुरुषो वृद्धो द्विजस् तत्रास्ति मे पतिः । एकस्थानान् न चलति जीवत्य् अब्दशतान्य् असौ
My husband there is an ancient man, aged, a twice-born; he does not move from one place and has lived for hundreds of years.
आ बाल्याद् ब्रह्मचारी च श्रोत्रियḫ पाठको ऽलसः । एकान्त एक एवास्ते ऽजिह्मवृत्तिर् अचापलः
From childhood he has been a celibate student, learned in the Vedas, indolent; he dwells alone, always upright in conduct and free from restlessness.
अहं व्यसनिनी भार्या तस्य वेद्यविदां वर । न निमेषं समर्थास्मि तं विना देहधारणे
I am his wife, addicted to suffering, O best of those who know the altar; I am not able to sustain my body for even a moment without him.
शृणु तेन कथं ब्रह्मन् भार्याहं समुपार्जिता । कथं वृद्धिम् अयं यातस् स्नेहो ऽस्माकम् अकृत्रिमः
Listen, O Brahmin, to how I became his wife, and how this genuine affection between us has grown.
तेन जातेन मद्भर्त्रा बालेनैव सता पुरा । किञ्चिज्ज्ञेन सतैकेन तिष्ठतात्मालये ऽमले
By him, my husband, who was born and was but a child then—possessing only a little knowledge—dwelling alone in his pure abode,
श्रोत्रियत्वानुरूपेह जाया मे जन्मशालिनी । कुतस् सम्भवतीत्य् एव निर्णीय चिरचिन्तया
He long pondered, considering with care, how a wife befitting a learned one, endowed with noble birth, might come to be.
स्वयम् एवानवद्याङ्गी तेन तामरसेक्षणा । उत्पादितास्मि नाथेन ज्योत्स्नेव शशिनामला
Then, by his own will, that faultless-limbed, lotus-eyed lord brought me forth, as the spotless moon brings forth its light.
मनसा मानसी भार्या मन्दारोदरसुन्दरी । ततो वृद्धिं प्रयातास्मि वसन्त इव मञ्जरी
As a creation of his mind, I became his mental consort, lovely as Mandāra’s slender waist; from there I grew, like a blossom in spring.
सहजाम्बरसञ्छन्ना भूतानां चित्तहारिणी । पूर्णेन्दुबिम्बवदना द्यौर् इवामलतारका
Clad in my innate radiance, enchanting the minds of beings, with a face like the full moon’s disk, I shone like the sky adorned with pure stars.
कोरकोच्चस्तनभरा समग्ररसशालिनी । लता वरवने नेव करपल्लवलासिनी
With budding, high breasts and abundant charm, I was like a graceful vine in a splendid forest, adorned with tender leaf-like hands.
सर्वस्य जन्तुजातस्य नित्यं हृदयहारिणी । हरिणीहारिनयना मदनोन्माददायिनी
Ever captivating the hearts of all living beings, with deer-like, enchanting eyes, I inspired the madness of love.
लीलाविलासैकरता हेलावलितलोचना । गेयवाद्यप्रिया नित्यं नवनृत्तानुरागिणी
Absorbed solely in playful delights, her eyes move with careless grace; ever fond of song and music, she is constantly enamored with new dances.
सौभाग्यभोगपरमा लक्ष्म्यलक्ष्म्योḫ प्रिया सखी । अनन्या मोहजालानाम् अखिन्ना सम्पदापदोः
Supreme in fortune and enjoyment, she is both the beloved and companion of Lakshmi and Alakshmi; untouched by the nets of delusion, she is never wearied at the feet of prosperity.
न केवलम् अहं गेहं धारयामि द्विजन्मनः । यावत् त्रैलोक्यसदनम् इदम् अङ्ग बिभर्म्य् अहम्
Not only do I sustain this house, O twice-born one, but indeed, my dear, I uphold this entire abode of the three worlds.
अहं कुलकरी भार्या कलत्रभरणक्षमा । त्रैलोक्यगृहसम्भारधारणैकभरोद्वहा
I am the matron of the family, a wife capable of bearing the duties of a spouse, carrying alone the burden of maintaining the household of the three worlds.
अथाहं तरुणी जाता समुद्भिन्नोन्नतस्तनी । लतोल्लसद्गुलुच्छेव विलासरसशालिनी
Then I became a young woman, with swelling, prominent breasts, radiant like a blossoming vine, endowed with the essence of charm and playfulness.
पतिर् मां दीर्घसूत्रत्वाच् छ्रोत्रियत्वात् तपोरतः । कयाप्य् अपेक्षयाद्यापि न विवाहितवान् इमाम्
My husband, due to his procrastination, his devotion to the Vedas, and his practice of austerity, for some reason has not yet married me.
तेन यौवनसम्पन्ना विलासरसशालिनी । तं विना व्यसनेनाहं दह्ये ऽग्नाव् इव पद्मिनी
Thus, endowed with youth and the essence of delight, I am consumed by longing in his absence, like a lotus scorched by fire.
शीतलानिललोलासु नलिनीषु निरन्तरम् । अङ्गदाहम् अवाप्नोमि पूताङ्गारस्थलीष्व् इव
Amidst lotuses swaying in the cool breeze, I constantly experience the burning of separation, as if on a bed of pure embers.
उद्यानावलयस् सर्वाḫ पूर्णाẖ कुसुमवर्षणैः । सम्पन्नास् तप्तसिकताश् शून्या मे मरुभूमयः
All the gardens encircling me are filled with showers of flowers; my deserts, though rich with burning sands, are empty.
जललोलोरुकल्हारकमलोत्करकोमलाः । सरस्यस् सारसारावसरसा मम नीरसाः
The lakes, once soft with swaying lotuses, blue lilies, and tender water-lilies, now lack all sweetness for me, though cranes and swans still dwell there.
अहं पुष्करमन्दारकुमुदोत्करमालिता । भृशं दाहम् अवाप्नोमि कण्टकेष्व् इव दोलिता
I, adorned with lotuses, heavenly coral-trees, and clusters of water-lilies, am scorched with intense burning, as if tossed among thorns.
कुमुदोत्पलकल्हारकदलीतल्पपालयः । मदङ्गसङ्गमाद् ग्रीष्ममर्मरा यान्ति भस्मताम्
Beds of water-lilies, blue lotuses, and golden lotuses, with banana-leaf canopies, are reduced to ashes by the searing heat of my body's contact.
यत् कान्तम् उदितं स्वादु विचित्रं चित्तहारि वा । तद् आलोक्य भवाम्य् अन्तर्बाष्पपूर्णायतेक्षणा
Whenever I see something lovely, delightful, or captivating to the mind, my eyes fill with tears within.
व्यसनानलसन्तप्ताḫ पतन्तो बाष्पबिन्दवः । छमच्छमिति मज्जन्ति कमलोत्पलपङ्क्तिषु
Drops of tears, heated by the fire of sorrow, fall and sink with a soft sound among the rows of lotuses and blue lilies.
कदलीकन्दलीस्कन्धदोलान्दोलनलीलया । ललितोद्यानषण्डेषु मुखम् आच्छाद्य रोदिमि
In the charming groves, I cover my face and weep, swaying gently on the swinging stems and trunks of banana trees.
तुषारनिकराकीर्णं कदलीदलमण्डपम् । पश्याम्य् ऊष्माणम् उज्झन्तं खदिराङ्गारभीषणम्
I see the pavilion of banana leaves, covered with heaps of frost, emitting fierce heat like the embers of acacia wood.
नलिनीनालदोलासु सारसीं सारसाश्रिताम् । दीनानना विलोक्यान्तर् निन्दामि निजयौवनम्
Seeing the sorrowful faces of the waterfowl resting on the swaying stalks of lotuses in the pond, I inwardly reproach my own youth.
रम्ये रोदिमि मध्यस्थे पदार्थे यामि सोम्यताम् । हृष्याम्य् अशोभने दीना न जाने किम् अहं स्थिता
In beautiful places I weep; in the midst of things I become gentle; I rejoice in what is unlovely, and am dejected—truly, I do not know what state I am in.