सम्पूर्णे दशमे मासि पुत्रो जातस्ततो मम । शुभेऽह्नि ग्रहनक्षत्रलग्नताराबलान्विते
In the tenth month, on an auspicious day endowed with favorable stars and planets, a son was born to me.
बभूव नृपतेर्गेहे पुत्रजन्ममहोत्सवः । राजा परमसन्तुष्टो बभूव सुतजन्मतः
There was a great festival in the king’s house for the birth of the son; the king was supremely pleased at the birth of his child.
सूतकान्ते सुतं वीक्ष्य राजा मुदमवाप ह । अहं भूमिपतेश्चासं प्रिया भार्या परन्तप
When the period of impurity ended, the king saw his son and was filled with joy; and I, O scorcher of foes, was the beloved wife of the lord of the earth.
ततो वर्षद्वयान्ते वै पुनर्गर्भो मया धृतः । द्वितीयस्तु सुतो जातः सर्वलक्षणसंयुतः
Then, at the end of two years, I again conceived; a second son was born to me, endowed with all auspicious marks.
सुधन्वेति सुतस्याथ नाम चक्रे नृपस्तदा । वीरवर्मेति ज्येष्ठस्य ब्राह्मणैः प्रेरितस्त्वयम्
Then the king, prompted by the Brahmins, named his younger son Sudhanvan, and his eldest son Viravarman.
एवं द्वादश पुत्राश्च प्रसूता भूपसम्मताः । मोहितोऽहं तदा तेषां प्रीत्या पालनलालने
Thus, twelve sons were born, all esteemed by the king; at that time, I was captivated by affection for them, caring for and nurturing them.
पुनरष्ट सुताः काले काले जाताः स्वरूपिणः । गार्हस्थ्यं मे ततः पूर्णं सम्पन्नं सुखसाधनम्
Later, eight more sons were born, each with their own qualities; thus, my householder's life became complete and filled with the means of happiness.
तेषां दारक्रियाः काले कृता राज्ञा यथोचिताः । स्नुषाभिश्च तथा पुत्रैः परिवारो महानभूत्
In due time, the king arranged proper marriages for them; with daughters-in-law and sons, my family became very large.
ततः पौत्रादिसम्भूतास्तेऽपि क्रीडारसान्विताः । आसन्नानारसोपेता मोहवृद्धिकरा भृशम्
Then, grandsons and others were born, delighting in play; they were always near, bringing ever-increasing attachment and delusion.
कदाचित्सुखमैश्वर्यं कदाचिद्दुःखमद्भुतम् । पुत्रेषु रोगजनितं देहसन्तापकारकम्
Sometimes there was happiness and prosperity, sometimes astonishing sorrow—illnesses afflicted my sons, causing pain to my body.
परस्परं कदाचित्तु विरोधोऽभूत्सुदारुणः । पुत्राणां वा वधूनां च तेन सन्तापसम्भवः
At times, there arose fierce quarrels among the sons or their wives, resulting in much distress.
सुखदुःखात्मके घोरे मिथ्याचारकरे भृशम् । सङ्कल्पजनिते क्षुद्रे मग्नोऽहं मुनिसत्तम
Immersed in the dreadful, ever-changing cycle of happiness and sorrow, born of false conduct and petty desires, I was thoroughly absorbed, O best of sages.
विस्मृतं पूर्वविज्ञानं शास्त्रज्ञानं तथा गतम् । योषाभावे विलीनोऽहं गृहकार्येषु सर्वथा
My former knowledge and understanding of scripture faded away; in the absence of wisdom, I became completely absorbed in household duties.
अहङ्कारस्तु सञ्जातो भृशं मोहविवर्धकः । एते मे बलिनः पुत्राः स्नुषाः सुकुलसम्भवाः
A strong sense of ego arose in me, greatly increasing my delusion: 'These sons of mine are powerful, these daughters-in-law are from noble families.'
एते पुत्राः सुसन्नद्धाः क्रीडन्ति मम वेश्मसु । धन्याहं खलु नारीणां संसारेऽस्मिन्नहो भृशम्
These sons, well-armed, play in my house; truly, I am most fortunate among women in this world.
नारदोऽहं भगवता वञ्चितो मायया किल । न कदाचिन्मयाप्येवं चिन्तितं मनसा किल
I, Narada, was deceived by the Lord's Maya; never did such thoughts arise in my mind before.
राजपत्नी शुभाचारा बहुपुत्रा पतिव्रता । धन्याहं किल संसारे कृष्णैवं मोहितस्त्वहम्
As a royal wife of good conduct, blessed with many sons and devoted to my husband, I thought myself fortunate in this world—thus was I deluded, O Krishna.
अथ कश्चिन्नृपः कामं दूरदेशाधिपो महान् । अरातिभावमापन्नः पतिना सह मानद
Then, a certain king, a great ruler from a distant land, became hostile towards my husband, O honored one.
कृत्वा सैन्यसमायोगं रथैश्च वारणैर्युतम् । आजगाम कान्यकुब्जे पुरे युद्धमचिन्तयत्
Gathering an army with chariots and elephants, he came to the city of Kanyakubja, intent on war.
वेष्टितं नगरं तेन राज्ञा सैन्ययुतेन च । मम पुत्राश्च पौत्राश्च निर्गता नगरात्तदा
That king, with his army, besieged the city; then my sons and grandsons went out from the city.
संग्रामस्तुमुलस्तत्र कृतस्तैस्तेन पुत्रकैः । हता रणे सुताः सर्वे वैरिणा कालयोगतः
A fierce battle was fought there by those sons; all my sons were slain in battle by the enemy, according to fate.
राजा भग्नस्तु संग्रामादागतः स्वगृहं पुनः । श्रुतं मया मृताः पुत्राः संग्रामे भृशदारुणे
The king, defeated in battle, returned to his house; I heard that my sons had died in that terrible war.
स हत्वा मे सुतान्पौत्रान्गतो राजा बलान्वितः । क्रन्दमाना ह्यहं तत्र गता समरमण्डले
Having slain my sons and grandsons, the king, endowed with power, arrived; I, wailing, went there to the battlefield.
दृष्ट्वा तान्पतितान्पुत्रान्पौत्रांश्चदुःखपीडिता । विललापाहमायुष्मञ्छोकसागरसंप्लवे
Seeing my sons and grandsons fallen, tormented by grief, I lamented, O long-lived one, submerged in an ocean of sorrow.
हा पुत्राः क्व गता मेऽद्य हा हतास्मि दुरात्मना । दैवेनातिबलिष्ठेन दुर्वारेणातिपापिना
"Alas, my sons, where have you gone today? Alas, I am destroyed by the wicked one—by fate, exceedingly powerful, irresistible, and most sinful."
एतस्मिन्नन्तरे तत्र भगवान्मधुसूदनः । कृत्वा रूपं द्विजस्यागाद्वृद्धः परमशोभनः
At that very moment, the blessed Madhusudana, having assumed the form of a twice-born, appeared there—an elderly man of supreme splendor.
सुवासा वेदवित्कामं मत्समीपं समागतः । मामुवाचातिदीनां स क्रन्दमानां रणाजिरे
Well-clad, learned in the Vedas, he willingly approached me as I stood there, extremely distressed and weeping on the field of battle.
ब्राह्मण उवाच किं विषीदसि तन्वङ्गि भ्रमोऽयं प्रकटीकृतः । मोहेन कोकिलालापे पतिपुत्रगृहात्मके
The Brahmin said: "Why do you grieve, slender one? This confusion has been made manifest—delusion expressed in the sweet speech of attachment to husband, sons, and home."
का त्वं कस्याः सुताः केऽमी चिन्तयात्मगतिं पराम् । उत्तिष्ठ रोदनं त्यक्त्वा स्वस्था भव सुलोचने
"Who are you? Whose daughter? Who are these? Reflect upon your highest self. Arise, abandon your weeping, and be composed, O beautiful-eyed one."
स्नानं च तिलदानं च पुत्राणां कुरु कामिनि । परलोकगतानां च मर्यादारक्षणाय वै
"Perform bathing and the offering of sesame seeds for your sons, O lovely one, for the sake of upholding the proper rites for those who have departed to the other world."