वनवासगता चाहं सैन्धवेन दुरात्मना। परामृष्टा द्वितीयं च सोद्रुमुत्सहते तु का ।। 32
While dwelling in the forest, I was again violated by the wicked Saindhava; who else could endure a second such ordeal?
पद्भ्यां पर्यचरं चाहं देशान्विषमसंस्थितान् । दुर्गाञ्श्वापदसंकीर्णांस्त्वयि जीवति पाण्डवे ।। 33
On foot I wandered through difficult lands, places filled with dangers and wild beasts, while you, O Pandava, were still alive.
ततोऽहं द्वादशे वर्षे वन्यमूलफलाशना। इदं पुरमनुप्राप्ता सुदेष्णापरिचारिका। परस्त्रियमुपातिष्ठे सत्यधर्मपरायणा ।। 34
Then, in the twelfth year, subsisting on forest roots and fruits, I entered this city, serving Sudeshna, and, devoted to truth and righteousness, attended another woman.
गोशीर्षकं पद्मकं च हरिश्यामं च चन्दनम्। नित्यं पिषे विराटस्य त्वयि जीवति पाण्डव ।। 35
I daily grind gośīrṣaka, padmaka, harishyamā, and sandalwood for King Virata, while you, O Pandava, are still alive.
साऽहं बहूनिः दुःखानि गणयामि न ते कृते ।। 36
I have endured many sorrows, yet I do not count them for your sake.
मत्स्यराजसमक्षं तु तस्य धूर्तस्य पश्यतः। कीचकेन पदा स्पृष्टा का नु जीवेत मादृशी ।। 37
In the presence of the king of the Matsyas, while that wicked man looked on, I was touched by Kichaka with his foot; what woman like me could survive such a thing?
एवं बहुविधैर्दुःखैः क्लिश्यमाना च पाण्डव । न मां जानासि कौन्तेय किं फलं जीवितेन मे ।। 38
Thus, tormented by many kinds of suffering, O son of Kunti, you do not understand me; what is the use of my life?
द्रुपदस्य सुता चाहं धृष्टद्युम्नस्य चानुजा। अग्निकुण्डात्समुद्भूता नोर्व्यां जातु चराम्यहम् ।। 39
I am the daughter of Drupada and the younger sister of Dhrishtadyumna; born from the fire-altar, I have never wandered upon the earth.
कीचकं चेन्न हन्यास्त्वं ग्रीवां बद्ध्वा जले म्रिये। विषमालेड्य पास्यामि प्रवेक्ष्याम्यथवाऽनलं ।। 40
If you do not slay Kichaka, I will tie a noose around my neck and die in water, or drink poison, or else enter fire.
आत्मानं नाशयिष्यामि वृक्षमारुह्य वा पते । शस्त्रेणाङ्गं च भेत्स्यामि किं फलं जीवितेन मे ।। 41
I will destroy myself, either by climbing a tree and falling, or by breaking my body with a weapon; what is the use of my life?
योऽयं राज्ञो विराटस्य कीचको नाम भारत। सेनानीः पुरुषव्याघ्र स्यालः परमदुर्मतिः ।। 42
This Kichaka, O Bharata, commander of King Virata’s army, is a brother-in-law and a man of utterly wicked mind.
स मां सैरन्ध्रिवेषेण वसन्तीं राजवेश्मनि। नित्यमेवाह दुष्टात्मा भार्या मम भवेति वै ।। 43
He, with a corrupt heart, always says to me, who dwell in the palace disguised as a maid, 'Become my wife.'
तेनैवमुच्यमानाया वधार्हेणारिसूदन। कालेनेव फलं पक्वं हृदयं मे विदीर्यते ।। 44
Thus addressed by him, who deserves death, O destroyer of foes, my heart is torn apart like a ripe fruit by time.
शरणं भव कौन्तेय मा स्म गच्छे युधिष्ठिरम्। निरुद्योगं निरामर्षं निर्वीर्यमरिमर्दन ।। 45
Be my refuge, O son of Kunti; do not go to Yudhishthira, who is inactive, without anger, and powerless, O destroyer of enemies.
मा स्म सीमन्तिनी काचिञ्जनयेत्पुत्रमीदृशम् ।। 46
Let no woman with the parting of her hair ever bear a son like this.
विजानामि तवामर्षं बलं वीर्यं च पाण्डव। ततोऽहं परिदेवामि चाग्रतस्ते महाबल ।। 47
I know your anger, strength, and valor, O Pandava; that is why I lament before you, O mighty one.
यथा यूथपतिर्मत्तः कुञ्जरः षाष्टिहायनः। भूमौ निपतितं बिल्वं पद्भ्यमाक्रम्य पीडयेत् ।। 48
Just as a sixty-year-old, intoxicated lord of elephants tramples a fallen bael fruit on the ground with his feet—
तथैव च शिरस्तस्य निपात्य धरणीतले। वामेन पुरुषव्याघ्र मर्द मादेन पाण्डव ।। 49
So too, O tiger among men, strike down his head to the earth and crush it with your left hand, O Pandava, in your wrath.
स चेदुद्यन्तमादित्यं प्रातरुत्थाय पश्यति। कीचकः शर्वरीं व्युष्टां नाहं जीवितुमुत्सहे ।। 50
If Kichaka, rising in the morning, sees the sun ascending and the night gone, I will not be able to live.
शापितोसि मम प्राणैः सुकृतेनार्जुनस्य च। युधिष्ठिरस्य पादाभ्यां यमयोर्जीवितेन च। कीचकस्य वधं नाद्य प्रतिजानासि भारत ।। 51
You are bound by my life, by Arjuna’s merit, by Yudhishthira’s feet, and by the life of the twin brothers; O Bharata, if today you do not vow to slay Kichaka—
भ्रात च विगर्हस्व ज्येष्ठं दुर्द्यूतदेविनम्। यस्मास्मि कर्मणा प्राप्ता दुःखमेतदनन्तकम् ।। 52
Brother, reproach the eldest, who is addicted to evil dice, because of whose deed I have come to this endless suffering.
येषां मुख्यतमो ज्येष्ठो भवेत्तु कुलपांसनः। भ्रातरं परमन्वीयुस्तेऽपि शालीनबुद्धयः ।। 53
When the eldest, the chief of the family, becomes a disgrace, even the brothers who follow him, though wise, are tainted.
को हि राज्यं परित्यज्य सपुत्रपशुबान्धवम् । प्रव्रजेत महारण्यमजिनैः परिवारितः ।। 54
Who, abandoning kingdom, sons, cattle, and kin, would wander into the great forest, clad in deerskin?
यदि निष्कसहस्राणि यद्वाऽन्यत्सारवद्धनम् । सायं प्रातरदेविष्यदपि संवत्सरायुतम् ।। 55
Even if there were thousands of gold coins or other valuable wealth, whether received morning and evening, or for ten thousand years—
रुक्मं हिरण्यं वासांसि यानं युग्यमजाविकम् । अश्वाश्वतरसङ्घाश्च न जातु क्षयमाव्रजेत्।। 56
Gold, silver, garments, vehicles yoked with livestock, and herds of horses and mules—these never suffered depletion.
सोयं द्यूतप्रवादेन श्रियश्चैवावरोपितः। तूष्णीमास्ते यथा मूढः स्वानि कर्माणि चिन्तयन् ।। 57
Now, by the outcome of dice, his prosperity has been overturned; he sits in silence, like one bewildered, pondering his own deeds.
पुरा दशसहस्राणि दन्तिनां वाजिनामपि। यं यान्तमनुयान्ति स्म सोयं द्यूतेन जीवति ।। 58
Once, ten thousand elephants and horses followed him wherever he went; now, he lives by gambling.
तथा शतसहस्राणि स्त्रीणाममिततेजसाम्। उपासते स्म राजानमिन्द्रप्रस्थे युधिष्ठिरम् ।। 59
Likewise, hundreds of thousands of women of immeasurable splendor served King Yudhishthira at Indraprastha.
शतं दासीसहस्राणां यस्य नित्यं महानसे। पात्रहस्ता दिवारात्रमतिथीन्भोजयन्त्युत ।। 60
A hundred thousand maidservants, always in the kitchen, with dishes in hand, served guests day and night.
एष निष्कसहस्राणि दत्त्वा प्रातर्दिनेदिने । द्यूतजेन ह्यनर्थेन महता समुपावृतः ।। 61
He gave thousands of gold coins every morning, but now he is beset by the great misfortune brought by gambling.